I share my own initiations, never anything that has not been granted through me. I speak words of my own wisdom and my own gnosis.
Many times my writings trigger conversations along the themes of exclusion, how dare I speak of my womb or my blood when there are those without this organ? How could I speak of my sexual pleasure when I have endured sexual trauma and others are still navigating theirs? Why do I speak as a vessel of a balanced feminine woman, what about the men?
I say time and again that it is because its through YOU that these topics must be heard. If you are in a place experiencing that which triggers you, then let your message be heard - this is your purpose! Until I have been initiated into these passages, I could never bring my congruency or authenticity into these subjects.
One day I will be a crone, and perhaps my blood will have flowed within, instead of out... and only then will I share of this passage. In this now I share from my place as a mother, a creative juicy sexual mother, one who bleeds. Through these messages, this is what I share
It was like a billion stars warp speeding their way through me and I arrived somewhere, a nowhere except for a place of a beat.
Stretching out fully with my inner sight, the beat sounded familiar and I brought my full attention to its rhythm; I realised we were one and I was in the heart of Mother Earth.
She/I were the centre of the whole universe, the heart of all matter seen and unseen. There was no fear, just love and an evolving gnosis to experience herself through me an all her children.
The vision panned out and I felt myself growing with her, up higher until I could see her as an infinite tree and her canopy was glowing with optic-like fireflies of whom all were souls in this quantum reality of life.
There was only peace and a settling on my soul fell about me, remembering my breath to breathe I with her in this oneness.
Returning to her heart, she let me know there was no separation, we became one until it filled my awareness so ultimately that I let go of my body completely.
The birds began an exquisite song, it was like the breaking dawn on the most beautiful summer day. I felt as though I were laying in grass with gentle warm winds kissing my aura.
I heard my name being called, I knew it was the Grandmothers calling me home. There was no rush to greet them, all was well and everything in place. I didn't want to move as the birds codes filled me with grace.
I arrived back in my bed to an early morning chorus with the knowing of home is all about us
Deeply enmeshed with my moon blood offerings, I am reminded of my thirteen year old self being so alone and bewildered with 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅? Wrapping toilet paper in bundles to create makeshift pads, feeling abandoned into this womanhood.
My body remembers, for she is the record keeper and she asks of me to feel through these old woundings of shame and being attacked by my own feminine lineage with the words that I was "disgusting", that my blood was a problem and like me should be locked away and not seen or to be dealt with.
Sometimes the womb must wail, for her grief to be heard, indignation felt fully, fire of consummation and I gave her space today on this cycle day two to burn that toxic feminine template through.
Gentleness follows exhaustion, I simply allow it for what else is there to do? These are the days of womb gnosis, no will could match its perfection.
Let her know you are ready to cum back to life
Beloveds 2019 taught me that conscious sexuality teachings are just another programming for the masses, most teachers so far up their own selves that they see a holographic sunshine!
We are here to birth a new sexuality onto the planet, a holy fire that envelops ALL so we may remember that all aspects of sexual energy are here to CREATE to LOVE and to SERVE.
If one aspect of sexuality disgusts you or you feel its beneath you, then ta-dah it's about to come tickle you awake.
This has been a humble awakening for me in my own sexual teachings beloveds.
Being in service to the Great Mother has meant to embody her I have to CUM BACK TO LIFE, to remember the juiciness and the rawness of Her creation, where ALL is welcome and ALL is to be loved.
2020 is the year where we bring our own teachings, gifted by the gnosis of the soul. So today I would like to share how you can gift your orgasm to the Earth.
𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒂𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒐 𝒅𝒆𝒗𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒐𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒏𝒆𝒓.
Set your intentions to come as you are, with whatever you carry in your hearts and mind, with whatever energy you carry in your sacral vessels, to anoint the mother with your divine innocence.
Allow whatever feelings and whatever thoughts that arise to just be, keep coming back to your heart or your partners heart and as you feel the build up of your ecstatic fire, guide the energy to the heart of mother earth.
Rest a while in this glow, do not hasten to be anywhere else and watch what happens as your offering to Her is then bestowed back to you. Be it in energy, thought or sight allow the communion of Mother Earth speak with you, know that you are blessed and all is of perfection.
I have found through these practices that Gaia has helped to transmute my sexual shame and distortions, it has helped me to giggle at the nonsense sexuality teachings can go, it has helped me to liberate my consciousness back to the oneness which is all of us.
Sexual energy is the holy love which created all beings and it is the same energy which will bring us back to divine life.
I wonder what she will show you?
How many deaths and rebirths have you had this year alone sisters? Hasn't it just been staggering? I've certainly lost count, and the whole number of deaths and rebirths my identity has had over four decades, well who knows.
What I have learnt though is that this is meant to be the way, and it is, always has and always will be: THE WAY OF WOMAN. Imagine we had this education as little girls, as teenagers and at any other time in our adult life. Imagine the freedoms this would grant to our hearts and our psyches remembering that we carry this gnosis within.
But we do sisters, as embodiments of the divine feminine we are here to cycle through life, forever unfolding, and forever revealing the notes of our signature, the perfume of our soul.
There is no unrest or despair in not having everything figured out, go easy sister for you are source creator infinitely blooming open and rapturous love is yours in THIS remembering.
True love awaits you, it takes self devotion to remember the truth of your soul.
Are you devoted to your self sister? What petal will you reveal today?
This retrograde and Lionsgate season didn't leave me or my beloved untouched, and I was asked on Saturday to share my secrets of communication with my partner.
We first and foremost come together on a mutual agreement that our personal freedom to grow in any direction we choose underpins our relationship.
After 3 years together, we strive to meet our own needs individually and not dependent on the other, as whole beings before reaching out to the other person if we become aware of any gap within.
When we recognise an 'issue' with the other person, we do the work on ourselves FIRST. We have innerstandings that our partner is a reflection of our inner world and when something is shown to us that perhaps we'd rather not see, we make a personal inquiry first to address any shadow aspect.
We communicate from the place of our highest truth, even if we are aware our words may cause discomfort for the other. We do this because speaking honestly and with integrity for our own self means we are not betraying our own hearts.
Sometimes we hit what we call 'brick walls' in our relationship. We hold each other with our presence even when its tough because our innerstandings knows that once one 'brick' moves, all will tumble away leaving only a new truth for us to hear and witness the other.
It is not 100% always smooth sailing, for instance there were a few issues recently and I fell into my wounded feminine mode, walking away from him and needed my own space for a week. Neither of us are fully enlightened beings and fall into traps of our ego from time to time BUT we are able to do the internal work and come back together with our truths.
We deeply love each other and its unconditional love without expectation. We support each other to follow our hearts and our dreams. We recognise we have something incredibly special that needs nurturing and tending to.
With each passing moment we feel the magic in our veins of our love, it keeps evolving beyond our wildest imaginations. We feel incredibly blessed and show how grateful we are for the other.